11.1.06

today

this morning i awoke on the couch. i was in a sitting position. i was completely dressed. a blazer, a hat, boots, a scarf. i had been dreaming about a party that i was throwing. i wanted everyone to stay, but they wouldn't stay, so i threw them out. i was screaming, which is why i woke up. i woke up. fully dressed, like i said. and i walked to the bathroom.

then suddenly, maybe prompted by what i was reading as i sat on the bathroom floor, i gave up. i said goodbye, i dropped a tear, i fixed my hair, i left the house.

my life is completely guided by everyone else. stupid glory.

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